Day 6

My day in great detail!

This is for yesterday, my birthday!!
I woke up to my handsome son snuggling on me and wanting to play. When Daniel woke up he asked me if I wanted him to make me breakfast; he knows that's the only way to make me get out of bed right that very second :)

We had eggs and waffles and it was delicious.
I sat on the couch or the floor most of the morning playing with Carter and watching Daniel play Gran Turismo 5.
Carter and I took a much needed nap that lasted twice as long as I expected it to!

I made shredded bbq beef sandwiches for lunch then we all got around to go a friends' house for the Super Bowl!
When we got home I put Carter to bed gratefully and climbed into bed myself. I was asleep before my head hit the pillow I'm sure!

Also I had my very first "tini" drink. A Pinktini...whatever that is lol. It was AMAZING! OH and chocolate cupcakes.

Birthday!

My birthday was yesterday!! Wooohooo! I did nothing special at all and I am totally ok with that.
I sat around the house, took a nice nap, then "watched" the super bowl. I had an awesome time with awesome people though and wouldn't have wanted anything different...well except for spending the day at home with family and other friends but hey that's life. And I really did have a great time!

Any way.. that's why I wasn't posting anything yesterday so I'm a day behind on my 'Details' post but I'll make it up. Eventually lol.

I have to take Carter to get his 6 month shots today :(
He is just so happy, even with the two teeth that are threatening to pop through any minute now, I really don't want to do it. But it's a week late thanks to all the snow so I better get to it asap.

-sigh-

Well on to my day!

I believe I've earned bragging rights.

Yesterday, when we finally managed to get out after being snowed in all week, we went to our bank and were like "hey take all our money!"

No seriously. I wrote the biggest check I have ever written (Twice because I apparently forgot how to write a check..).
$2915.06. Auto Loan paid off! -sigh of relief-
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Last night I hosted my first passion party and, even after it being only the 2nd I have ever even attended, I purchased my starter kit to begin selling these lovely *must have* products. $301.68.
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TODAY after a lot of math, I mean a lot, and a great discussion about future payments, we put down another "chunk of change" towards the auto loan for my Eclipse. $3450.00

As extremely ecstatic as I am about all this, I can only think of one word to describe the next ten days: Broke


But hey, at least I have something to brag about! :)
Goodnight!

What is love? Baby don't hurt me...

"Don't hurt me no more..."  Yeah I'm a loser.

Anyway-Day 4 My definition of love:

Love is...
Ugh I'm bad at this. I don't really think love has a definition.
It just is.




I think I'm just going to post a favorite pic and move on.
So much for great detail huh? :)

We so crazy..crazy in loooove Hahaha!

My Munchies!

Day 3- What I ate today.

Well I woke up starving at 8am and sadly didn't get anything to eat until 11:30!!
I was so happy though; we went to Country Kitchen with our friends and I had the 'Everybody's Favorite' with 2 over easy eggs, 4 strips of bacon, hash browns, 2 pancakes, and lord knows how many cups of coffee! Ahhh delish!


Then after cleaning my house a bit it was time to get ready for the Passion Party I hosted tonight so I made a pretty awesome rotel cheese dip, put out a couple cheese balls and crackers, had chocolate covered strawberries (Mmm) and a french silk pie. Hooray for junk food!


Hubs brought home a big dipper pizza thing from pizza hut but I have yet to indulge in it... I'm still not sure if I will or not. It's almost 10:30 so maybe I shouldn't..

Well... That's it! Hmm.. Should have done this one yesterday. I made a pretty bomb ass dinner! Oh well!
Peace!

Thursday Theme Song

Thursday Theme Song-
Pick a song and add photos to go with the lyrics.

So I just turned on the Music Channel Hit List on TV and decided to use whatever song was playing for this post. So here is   "Maybe" -Sick Puppies


Maybe I'm a dreamer
Maybe I'm misunderstood
Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should
Maybe I'm crazy
(Maybe I'm crazy)
Maybe I'm the only one
(Maybe I'm the only one)
Maybe I'm just out of touch
Maybe I've just had enough

Maybe it's time to change
And leave it all behind
I've never been one to walk alone
I've always been scared to try
So why does it feel so wrong
To reach for something more
To wanna live a better life
What am I waiting for?
'Cause nothing stays the same
Maybe it's time to change




Maybe it's hopeless
(Maybe it's hopeless)
Maybe I should just give up
(Maybe I should just give up)
What if I can't trust myself?
What if I just need some help?

Maybe it's time to change
And leave it all behind
I've never been one to walk alone
I've always been scared to try
So why does it feel so wrong
To reach for something more
To wanna live a better life
What am I waiting for?
'Cause nothing stays the same
Maybe it's time to change

And maybe it's time to change
And leave it all behind
I've never been one to walk alone
I've always been scared to try

And maybe it's time to change
And leave it all behind
I've never been one to walk alone
I've always been scared to try
So why does it feel so wrong
To reach for something more
To wanna live a better life
What am I waiting for?
'Cause nothing stays the same
Maybe it's time to change
'Cause nothing stays the same
Maybe it's time to change

3-My lovely parents!

Ladies and Gentlemen.. (or lady shall I say seeing as I have only 1 follower currently..)

MY MOMMY!


(And My Son.)

This woman has taught me everything about life. She is my best friend. My anchor. My rock. And sometimes the biggest pain in the ass I know.
I know I know She's my MOM we aren't supposed to get a long all the time. But Serious, Up until the time I found I was pregnant, we did. That was a year and a few good months ago. Now it's like a constant 'who can raise a child better' battle. Of course I'll never tell I think she's wrong. I still call her and ask for opinion things. Sometimes I do it just to do the opposite of what she says :P
Whoopps started talking about me..

My mom in great detail, is a woman who has been through Hell and back. (Sorry but I'm not getting THAT detailed here)
She was an adult at the age of 14. Took care of her family, the house, and lost a bit of her childhood. Oh but don't worry, at 17-18 she went through the reckless teen phase and Oh man this is where I pop in!

My mommy became a mommy Feb 6, 1989 when she was just 18.5 years old. Talk about having to grow up again real quick! She didn't have the help she deserved either. But she did have a good head on her shoulders and left that pompous ass and found herself back at home with her own (Wonderful) mommy.
I grew up with my mom and my grandparents. They were my world. They still are to this day.
My mom eventually got back on her feet and we had our place for a while. I don't remember much of it so again not quite as detailed as I planned..
When I was 7 she married my dad, no not my step-dad. I don't care if I'm not his flesh and blood, he is my dad and I am his daughter.

I don't *know* the details to back this up, but somehow my dad lost his childhood too.
I think he chose it. Idk.
Anyway... MY DADDY!


(And ME!)

Wow.. this could be a L-O-N-G post...
I'll try to keep it simple.

I still remember the first time I asked my daddy if I could call him 'daddy'
The look on his face and the excitement in the air thrilled my heart. I mean c'mon, every little girl needs a daddy! And I finally found mine. (Well my mom found him anyway lol)
We were pretty tight. We played softball together, did flips on the trampoline, went to the lake, fished, built half of a fort, (not sure why only half..) We were such a great pair.
Then I became a teenager.
Or a tween? I don't remember exactly how I was but boy did my dad and I have a falling out.
We fought all the time. Nothing was ever mutual between us anymore. And of course it was always my fault for having such a bad attitude.
Now that' I'm grown and have my kid I thought I could look back on these days and see his point but I still don't. How does MY attitude make you act like you hate all 3 of your kids? Hmm..?
Anyway..
Things were pretty bad. I know it hurt my mom and I also know she hid herself from our actions and pretended everything was okay, but it really wasn't. I didn't think it ever would be.
I hated him. And I made sure I said those three hurtful words loud and clear! He knew. I knew he knew.
I have never regretted being honest so much in my life. Yes, honest. Not thirteen year old smart ass I hate you's. I sincerely hated him. For a very long time.
But I do very much regret hurting him. He is my daddy. And as much I wanted to at the time, I can't help but hurt over hurting him.
Things got..better, I guess after I moved out. It was weird. I still thought I hated him but he seemed so different. His oldest little girl was gone. I get that now.
It took me getting married to really fall back in love with my dad. We have a wonderful long distance relationship now due to my husband being in the military. However, we have have hopeful plans of being home again soon and I cannot wait to start our little family where we belong. With our own families.

Babble babble babble... Not sure if this is what was expected from this topic but hey I did it anyway.
So I hope you enjoyed a look through my very shadowed child like eyes. :D

Wordless Wednesday

(Stolen Idea from a friend)

Seems fitting.

2- My first love

This is actually pretty hard for me to think/write about.
I have oddly been dreaming about him recently. Nothing crazy like missing him, being with again, or anything like that. He is just there. Like we are just good friends hanging out. Crazy dreams.

He was the GOOFIEST kid I knew and I couldn't stand to be away from him. We were best friends. Inseparable. But a very odd couple.
I wouldn't say I was considered popular by any means in high school but I know it seemed odd me being with him. I mean he was a dork. But I liked my dork. All of them, the whole gang! We were cool dorks.
He was tall, freckly, and red headed. So adorable. *laughing* so goofy.

I remember we dated for 18 days in 8th grade. I only remember bc we eventually got together again freshman year and I made a big deal Halloween night about it being the 19th day! I was so proud. :P
Well the story goes...We were together all freshman year. Crazy in love. Such sweet puppy love.
That summer we respectfully discussed "the next step". Yeah.
He was my first, and I his. It was sweet in a way, at the time, bc we knew we would be together forever.
Of course that wasn't the case.
We carried on our happy relationship into sophomore year. We made a few new friends along the way, and, well, one of his new friends became his new "the one". One of many..

For our 1 year he got me a promise ring. Just to turn around not even a month later to tell me we were done.
Just like that. Everything was gone. I was crushed. Devastated.
I never believed in regrets and felt that I did what was right by me whether or not we stayed together. After all I did love him. It wasn't until I married that I wished things were different (as far as losing my virginity goes). My husband deserves to have had me all to himself. But that's not what we're discussing here is it..

Nicholas Bradley.

Nick, Nick, Nick... My how you have changed. My goofy dork very quickly turned into the guy that dated, dumped, and didn't care. Didn't care about the girls. Didn't care about his friends. Didn't care about himself. Just wanted a rep I guess. Well it wasn't a good one if you ask me. We didn't even try the whole "let's be friends" BS. We were smarter than that. But I still find myself missing him. Who he was. What his friendship meant to me. He's no longer that person in any way, shape, or form, and I'm certain never will be again. He lost himself.

Sometimes I think "I regret..." but when I really sit down and think about it (which I do quite often, lamely) I know I wouldn't be where or who I am today if it weren't for him. The whole experience. I really think that he was 'the one' in a very uniquely different type of way. He was the one who helped me discover me. Gave me life lessons to learn. Broke my heart so I could find out just how strong I was. Loved me enough to let me know that love existed. Somewhere. Somehow. Showed me where I wanted my life to go. It's bittersweet really.
I know I am extremely happy with my life because I so often thought "I will never lose myself the way he did".

I miss my friend a lot really. But I know this is the way it is supposed to be. And I am happy. Perfectly happy.

Get to know me!

Day 1- Introduce yourself.


Well, I'm Ashley. I'm 21, 22 on Feb 6. I'm married to the love of my life, my high school sweetheart, Daniel. He is perfect for me now matter how much he can get under my skin sometimes. :)
e have a beautiful son, Carter who is 6 months! He is be far the greatest part of my life. I stay home and take care him and love every minute it. I can't imagine not spending the day with him either in my arms or right by my side.
However I better try to get over that bc soon I will be trying to get myself back into working, at least part time to bring in that extra money. 
I absolute love my friends and family. I wouldn't be me without them! I am extremely outgoing and outspoken. I often forget to think before I speak. I like honesty and do what I can to make it a part of who I am. 
I enjoy reading, singing, coloring my hair, watching TV, long days in bed, dancing in the rain (cliche I know..)...
I'm super addicted to Facebook. I mean who isn't these days, right? But I seriously think I might need help for it.. :)
I hate the cold, especially cold feet. I hate people who try to one up everyone around them, cooking-although I am at lest getting better at it!


There is a lot to ne! I have no problems answering questioned if this isn't detailed enough but for now, Carter Bug is up from his last nap so I am cuddling the rest of this snowy night away with him <3


Woot! 1st post accomplished!